Life Will Test You

Life will test you.
Whether you’re ready or not.

If there is anything absolute about life, it’s this.

Everything you learn… will be tested.

And it shows up in two ways.

You catch it when you’re calm.
When you’re present.
When you’re aware.

There’s that internal nod.

“Ah… there it is.”

You see it.
You feel it.
You choose.

Or…

You totally miss it.

Knee-jerk.
Foot-in-mouth reaction.

And then later…

You start seeing it clearly, replayed in your mind.

“Fuck.”

That automatic slap to the forehead.

Telling yourself, “That was the test, you dumbass.”

And you’ll spend the rest of your day flogging yourself about it.

Amigo, it sucks.

Get to understand and accept that it is part of it.

Otherwise, you don’t make the change you need to make.

And the lesson comes back again…

In a different situation.
With a different person.

In order to see it…
To fine-tune it…
To even anticipate it happening…

It takes practice.

You need to fuck up a couple of times to get it right.

We all know that.

But when it’s you…

It hits different.

And still… you push through.

Because that’s how you learn.

Not by being told.

By living it.
By getting tested by it.

And next time…

You’ll catch it sooner.